Sunday, June 1

When i woke up today, it suddenly hit me in the head.
things that only a soap opera can have,
Life, Love, Tragedy, Drama, Horror, Comedy...
the moment my eyes opened and i got out of lala land
my life flashed in front of my eyes and i saw things that are still yet to be attended to

The more important things in life, other then sleeping in bed all day thinking of you know who.
i thought to myself, the things i did cannot already be undone, the tears, the anger and the confusion i spared for it
cannot reanimate a dead heart. its not a frankenstein movie lah, neither it is Narnia where a lions breath can do wonders for your frozen friend. tho some wished it was that easy, but when love is lost,its gone u know? even if it came back it wudnt be the same. so there i was rolling around on my bed, thinking of poems and love songs to use to text her and tell her of how it used to be... so on and so forth.. and there i was once again on my bed not doing anything about it. so its pretty pointless u see. so i am as always stuck in a rut. maybe its just the way of life, when a good thing happens and you're really REALLY happy... THUNDER CLOUDS COME ROLLING BABY!!! so yeah... here i am dripping wet at my front door with nothing in hand to show my mommy.. haha!! i have come to realize that why i was so sad was because i lost more of a friend/gf/bf who was always there for me. and since i never felt losing something before, you get the picture. And no i dont hate you for doing the things u did, its human nature people!! People tend to avoid the things that they dont like. Yes.. i know its not "the real" you.
But thats just it you know?

"Happens to every guy sometimes this does."

"Fear is the path to the dark side. Fear leads to anger. Anger leads to hate. Hate leads to suffering."
-Master Yoda

Imagine living for 900 years.. he must have been a real something. HAH!

Ok moving on to the more important things...

Numero uno.. when i got out of bed, and as i was taking my shower, i thought to myself....

Myself : Shit... I HAVEN APPLIED FOR MY UNIVERSITY!!! ALAMAK!

then..

Myself : ARGGH!!! MY PORTFOLIO!!! how? HOW?! help? plz?

then..

Myself: Maybe i should start working on an independent film something like STARGAZERS! and put it in my portfolio

then..

Myself: But then again... NO MONEY!!! NO EQUIPMENT AND NO FINAL CUT PRO!!!!

then..

Myself: But your imac sitting there waiting for something to happen!!

then..

Myself : yah horr!!!

Etc.. etc...

And all this happened as i was slowly soaping down my butt, brushing my teeth, flossing and all that. Its like when a computer generates a wholeeee lot of coding that Your human mind cant comprehend. just to sum it all up..

Here i have the battle between

- University Admission

- Getting My Nikon

- Getting Final Cut Studio

- Getting Basic Equipments for film

- Remaking my room to be a "recording studio"

- Getting Equipments for that Recording studio

- Backpacking to Asia and Europe

Anyone wants to hire a Cameraman/soundman/post audio producer/ video editor/Photographer/Firefighter??

Sooo many things!! so little time!! okok.. i may not have the perfect plan but this is what im gonna do.

i may not be the smartest kid in more ways then one, i may not be good in this and that like language and literature or "arts"
but hand me anything and i'll show u how to fix it.

All of this boils down to one thing.. which is... My future. i dunno wat one hour, one day or one year from now will bring but one thing i know is that i would really wanna be like my lecturer Jeanine.

Her passion for Film and all just amazes me. how she can be doing so many things and yet have time to come sit down with her students to help them with their work just so we can shine, sit down and talk about life. yeah maybe thats what i really wanna be in the future a lecturer like jeanine imparting my knowledge on everything Film and sound to my students. Students who will see me as a role model and will be inspired to carry on.

SO as of 2008 this is a summary of what have happened(things that i can remember) and most probable things to come

January
- Got My Sergeant
- Suffered Minor Cardiovascular Breakdown
- Joined Jurong Fire station Rota 1
- got to work with the coolest bunch of people
- went for my first fire call
- felt the "emo-est" in the entire 21 years of my life

February
- Celebrated my brother's birthday
- Tried to Win her back ( i made her a purple card)
- still felt emo
- My first time at a Fire post

March
- Bought My IMAC (coolest shit ever)
- Owe My mom $$1700
- First time my mom saw her live at the IT fair
- Thought of Getting a DSLR
- Failed My 2nd TP test ( pfft.. "Your driving skills are Good, But its not suitable for the road")

April
- MY 21st!
- Sort of moved on.. Sort of..
- Got my fisheye 2 camera (having loads of fun with it!)
- Owe my mom $1.3k
- Mom decides to give me a $200 discount
- Owe My mom $1.1k
- Thought of playing rugby again

May
- First time at Old Changi Hospital ( oooo creepy!)
- Met Audrey Lange( i think shes cute)
- Owe my Mom $700
- NIkon or Canon?
- Nikon D40, D40x or D80?

June
- DSLR camera at IT fair (wont tell u which one till i get it)
- Owe Mother $300
- BOOK TP again for the 3rd time
- 1 year to ORD OH!!

July
- Education counseling
- FTT Expires
- Redang?
- Work on portfolio

August
- Education Counseling
- TBA
- Work on portfolio

September
- TBA
- Work on Porfolio

October
- TBA
- Work on Portfolio

November
- TBA
- Work on Portfolio

December
- TBA
- Work On Portfolio
- Kick in ORD MOOD

So thats about it.. 2008.. i can only wait and see what happens next. Till then let me leave you with what i think would be a good quote by yours truly, ehem2...

The only way to be successful and have lots of money.... is to work on it! haha!!! like who doesn't know?

Till then... i'm having some fun first.

Have a niceeee day.. =) - Stereophonics

Intertwined thoughts @ 10:08 AM