Monday, April 21

I've got a confession to make....
yes i do...
get this heavy feeling of my chest i really need to...

just a simple message from me to you..

yes my darling muafah.. i miss u...
3 months came and went, im still blue..
3 whole miserable months without you..
i prayed and prayed for you to come through..
hoping you come running to my arms, Please!! will you?

stop this torture you bring upon me...
it hurts inside, cant u see?
our friendship was more then what we expected it to be,
i fell for you head over heels.

didnt u realize my feelings are true..
all of them i tell you, including
I LOVE YOU..

Now that your gone, im a total mess..
you wont even talk to me no more,a stab in the chest..
i thought our friendship was way beyond this,
way beyond all the blinded love that corrupts all of us..

guess i was wrong to get involved
in a game they call love

for everytime i try to move foward
i think of you,
every waking moment i freaking miss you
seconds, minutes, hours tick away,
i'll hope you'll be back someday,
to accept the person i already am
not the perfect man,
but the man who loves you

so many times i told you, u were perfect just the way u were,
u said " nolah.. im just mediocre."
but u were special to me, couldn't you see?
special enough to call u my honey pie,
stick with you all nite when you cried..
sleeping by the poolside that nite.

tho sometimes i may be a prick,
for sleeping on you, is my bestest trick
i tried my best to change my ways
just to make you happy always

never once did i ever thought of leaving you,
even when the opportunity came, i pushed it away..
i believed in you.
Now im just a DUDE
i mean nothing to you.

your inner battles always fighting yourself
my ego took the bullet, you killed it.
it dont matter to me what u do to hurt me,
i loved you even when your angry.
i let u vent your anger and thoughts on me
brought me down so low once u did

I was broken then, broken to pieces,
knowing how u really felt about me,
less of a person, more of an enemy..
yes i was sad and u hurt my pride
but i thought about it, and forgave u the very next nite

i hate seeing u sad, hated it so much
i try my best to cheer you up,
u just wudnt open up to me,
im fucked up.

trust me i said to you, im not gonna play u out
like your exs did, bunch of bastards,
i know u dont trust people easy,
but u had to use the promises i broke against me.

i llove you, words that linger on i my head.
of the girl who thought i was special enough for her
like a lightning strike now im not,
my life support cut off, im gasping for air

i devoted myself to you my dear,
just so you know u have someone near
near to your heart, right from the start.

tho i did not buy u flowers or chocolates
like yazid did,
i love u more than those pretty things
if really your love is materialistic...
then its not love, just freaking greed..

emotions running all over the place,
i just wanna let you know how i feel now
nothing really changed, just that your not here now

i really just want you back...
back to where it was
back to how it was
back to the way you used to love me
cause muafah, I LOVE YOU.

and im not shy about it coz i really do.

even if you really cant,
all im asking from you is,
your respect. respect me as a friend, as a person
i too have emotions my dear.
nothing else.
not your love, not your time, not your trust.
just your respect.

Intertwined thoughts @ 10:04 PM