Sunday, April 6

Fate and Destiny.
What if these two words don't exists? Who would we blame for any good or bad things that happens in life?
What would be a good reason for us to tell each other? Would we blame the almighty? Who would mankind blame if Fate and Destiny did not exists??

I'm not questioning my faith. Neither am i doubting islam or the almighty. Im just pondering on what are the factors that add up to this? What did i do to deserve what i get? People say" ouh its just not fated", Your not destined to be..." But what if we were? Isn't destiny suppose to be what we make? Through effort and perseverance. Or shud we just let Fate control our destiny? Ok maybe what happened didnt totally involve destiny or fate, maybe it was divine intervention. God knows by having her i forget him sometimes. She was constantly on my mind. And by that he had to take her away. he knows how much she means to me. he knows. maybe he had to take her away for awhile, just to make me remember him again. maybe take her away forever. only time will tell.

I still remember that night, he shown the moonlight to her face. magical. Tho i didnt fall for it at first, somehow, we connect. I didnt like her cause she is pretty or what so ever. yah she is beautiful. but it didnt matter to me at that pt of time. All that mattered was she was there talking to me. we became friends just like that. As time pass, i grew fonder and fonder of her. there was just something about her that made me smile everytime i see her. maybe its her biggg pretty eyes, or maybe it is her high cheek bones. i dont know. just her presence makes everything slow down. i decided to hang around for abit. i missed her more and more. i always wanted to see her everytime i could. running thru my head, 24/7. i just cudnt get enough. the attention i got was all too good to be true. i had to know more. know more of the girl who thinks im worth the time. her time. seasons came and go. we grew on each other. i always thought i've found my special one. and i told her she was special to me. she still is. but somehow, somtheing happened and now she's gone. she was what i prayed for. PERFECT. now all i get is a cold front.

i wonder why it happened, till now. why was my piece of heaven taken away. I was soooo Happy that she was there. what did i do? what did i do? Isnt love on its own enough? i told her i loved her so. and didnt i care much for her? was my effort not good enough? i dunno see. if really there are bigger things for me. plz tell me. just tell me. at least show me a sign. cause i love her truly and if there is even a slight hope of getting her back. i will fight for it. i just dont see why she has to hate me. when she cud say she loves me. how can love turn to hate? hmmm..

Intertwined thoughts @ 10:47 PM