Wednesday, February 6

As the day gets old. And life takes a toll on us. all of us race to get to the piece of solitude we all call home. And when the time is right, we crawl onto our beds and succumb to temporary death. The moment we close our eyes, We forget everything we have done the day before, all emotions drowned in the deep sea of out thoughts and only hope for a better tomorrow.

We say our good nights to the people around us. For me i start off by saying a prayer to GOD so as he will send angels to guard me through the night. I know my prayers were answered as i never did have a bad night. I pray that my sins were forgiven. and that if i died, I'd go to heaven.

Secondly, i say a silent good night to the people who brought me into this world, my superhero parents. They somehow manage to get through the day juggling their careers and at the same time having to keep the 3 of us in mind 24/7. I LOVE THEM LIKE NO OTHER. Even if i dun say it that much to them, I hope they know that i really do.

And not forgetting everyone that has been a part of my life. Be it relatives, old friends or new friends. Basically anyone i can think of.

Lately, all i can think of is you, My feline sidekick. Its been so long since i really said Good night to you. The day our boats sailed out together, I will always remember.The times we've been sailing together. Tho sometimes in choppy waters, we somehow manage to get through. It seems that now our boats are caught in an Atlantic storm. i dont know why, but it seems that the more i try to reel you in closer to my boat, the further yours get. even tho i can still see it, my line is ending soon. while you are at the other end holding a machete ready to cut my line loose and i will lose you to the horizon forever. I try to reach out to you as far as i can, but im fighting a losing battle.

We let our guard down to what we thought was a beginning of a new chapter of our story. OK, maybe i let my guard down, you were always protecting yourself from bad weather. But other then that i enjoy it when we're together. Happy times, not so happy times. We went through it together remember? Yah i know, the thick fog blocks me from seeing you for 6 months. but as each day pass, i was counting down the days till i get to be with you again for good. Now that the fog is clear, i don't see you anymore. and im left here with a torn sail. i know you are somewhere ahead of me, and theres nothing a little patch cant do. I'll be raring to go and I'll be catching up soon.

Sometimes i wonder why u did it. Only you have the real answer to that. How do you feel about me now? so many questions running in my head. But all i hope for is that, things be like how it was. i like to believe that u didn't have a moment of regret knowing me. Cause truthfully, i never regretted a single moment when i was with you. Both of us wanted this to be a smooth sailing journey. But maybe we didn't see the lighthouses, that will guide us down the right path. i hope whats left of us never fades. What i used to say to you, i meant it all. i really believed in what we had and always was trying to make it work. cause you know and i know of the memories we shared. if ever there is a chance for us to do it again,i will take your hand and do it. But it looks like, you're having too much fun these days without me. and i dun wanna end that for you.

If its ok, i'd really like you to speak to me the way we used to. thats all im asking. just one thing.I just thought that after my training, you could get to know me better since we never really got to know each other. If your playing, please stop, cause i really miss you to the core. everyday i wake up with a new hope. A hope for us.

Here's to you my dear. GOOD NIGHT MUAFAH.. =) MEWWW!

You rock my world.

Intertwined thoughts @ 7:36 AM