Monday, February 18

a freak she calls me.thats all i ever be.
my love for her was not received.
all i wanted was to be special.
now im not.
she called me "freak"
thats all i've got.

the last word from her.
not a goodbye or thank you.
but freak!
my broken heart breaks sumore.
i lost her forever.
she wont be back no more.

it is wrong for me to do the things i did?
i only loved her.. thats all i ever did.
all i do now is make her mad.
making me a lil more sad.
all i wanted is she see's me the way i used to be.
the cool chinese guy.
whose cute and innocent as he'll ever be.

i lost myself.
lost all hopes and dreams.
for i thought she fell for me after our first kiss.
i told her i loved her. as much as i could.
to let her know that she be good.

be a good girlfriend. my one and only.
be close to me my dear.
plz believe me. i mean her no harm.
i just needed the touch of a stranger's warmth.
now im nothing to her. not even cool.
another freak in her head.
im the fool.

Muafah muafah.. i loved u...
i tot you'd love me back too..
goodbye Muafah my lovely sun..
you made feel like i was number one!
those times that you were in doubt.
i push u abit just to get u out.
get you out from the spot that made u blue
just by saying "im here for you"

now that your gone away from me..
i just wish that i could let u be..
be away from me.. be happy and be free..
u want to have your old life back..
rock and roll, gigs and all that act..
i fell for the rocker chick i once knew
head over heels i fell for u..

u rocked my world like no other girl..
u shown me love that was surreal..
now i can only dream of you when i sleep..
no more you no more me no more us to keep..
i wish i just have one more day..
just to show u how much u made me sway..

u left me high in the sky..
now im falling, screaming "somebody save me!!"
save me now i hope you would..
just tell me you are joking..
and ur testing me..
just to see.. how much u mean to me

i promised you it all be alright..
once i get out of that damn camp that nite..
now that im out and free..
all u wanna do is leave me..

remember the words i said to u..
those words i mean so true..
i'll remember your dear words so vividly..
every word every sentecnce written to me..

take care for now.. i'll be around..
tell chuck and impy ..
im sorry plz dun frown..
i took affa away from u guys just for a while..
just to have myself a partner in crime..

have her back now... your kitty kitty love..
hope we meet again someday.. in another world..
a world where we can be.. just like how it used to be...
just u and me...
forever free...

Intertwined thoughts @ 1:29 PM